Its early - the sun has just risen. Fresh clean morning air.  I sit on the porch & see our cows, their heads down, slurping  cool water out of the reservoir,  the gulping slurps fill the quiet pasture.  The cooling fans of last evening are shut off and the coolness and sweetness of morning nudges my tired soul.  I review last nites' experience in my mind and in my body.  The heat stirred new beginnings and rustled the memories of former nites when my body was willing and warm and balanced to the melody of love's echoes.  I remember and try to focus on the memory to nudge me in a new direction.  Today is a new day and I will absorb its facets of newness, like a freshly polished diamond, and i will enjoy the sparkle as it inspires me into new experiences and episodes.   Every day is a possibility to learn and grow and appreciate and love.

Land For Sale

People come by to view the property and we silently interview them to assess their desires and why do they want to live in the country, next door to us.   How many times have I heard folks tell me that they hate their neighbours due to a myriad of excuses that have all resulted from selfish people not being fair and not getting along well with others.   I can tell when people talk to us after the walk experience if they are interested - they usually get excited and share one of their dreams!  I listen, I nod, and silently I wonder if this is the one.  What if?  More talking usually highlights the one obstacle in the person hesitating to make an offer - the reasons there are many - usually the first reason is money.  They want the large space and the room to breathe - what they don't have is the money to buy it.  And so we wait.
One couple wanted to swap us their property for ours but really there was no comparison in the exchange.  Why would I want their house and gotta say it "junk filled" yard instead of taking the hard cold cash.   Decision wasn't too hard to make.

Interesting insights.  The reaction you get when one friend disappoints the crap out of you, has a dangling thread to another instance, when my reaction was also the same.  Different event - same reaction.  Time for me to investigate and kill the seed once and for all to discover where the source of the pain  is coming from.   How often do we feel so disappointed by those people we have shared our lives with.  Why do they treat us so badly - the circle is meant for closeness and appreciation of others.

Selfish Friends

They compartmentalize their friends.  If family is visiting she excludes you from the celebrations because she doesn't want to mix both together.  Why - what is she trying to hide.    Its her birthday and she wont let us celebrate with her.  Why?   What is she trying to control.  Her husband has food issues and is in fear of his weight climbing when he doesn't exercise or do anything else to be a healthier man. Just controls what goes into his mouth.